aksarnerk | aurora borealis

Film, Love, Thoughts

Either God was up late painting, or there’s an alien invasion on it’s way, but they can’t decide where to land. 

Tonight I got to see the Northern lights for the first time.


During my last shift, someone at work told me the lights had been good the night before. Around 11:30pm I remembered this, and I peeked outside… to a glorious green-streaked sky.

First, I got shivers all over. Then, I knew I needed to grab my camera. I brought my camera out onto the deck and was trying to use auto focus and it was obviously not working, so I just stared at the lights and there may have been a few tears. Disbelief, gratitude, amazement…

Back inside the house, with the help of light, I managed to figure out my camera settings and brought my conveniently just-made cocoa and a blanket outside to keep watching and hopefully to capture some of this beauty. I am very happy with the shots I got. Even if they aren’t totally clear, it was my first time seeing the northern lights, and I’m thankful I got a few shots.




After a while, I came out from behind the lens and just sat back to watch. I reflected again on a word I’ve been writing about frequently in my journal: transient. It’s a word I like so much I’m contemplating getting it tattooed. So much in our life is transitory, temporary, just here for a brief moment in the wide scope of time. Even us, we are just passing through. But it is in the impermanent that there is so much beauty and we can appreciate and remember the temporary moments, people, experiences that brought us the most joy. I am all the more grateful for things that I am unable to hold in my hand. I am more grateful for things that I have lost. I am more grateful for the passing and changing beauty of the world around me than anything solid.

It was a beautiful night to be alive, really.

Once again, thankful to be where I am in this moment, and looking forward to everything that the year will bring.

My Northern Start


I’ve begun the process of making a packing/purchase list for my move this July. I’m moving to Nunavut. Away from this warm and wet BC West Coast, up to the Canadian arctic. I’m not nervous about the move; I’ve left home for extended periods before, with less contact with family than I will when I go. I’m looking forward to this change, this opportunity to develop in so many areas of my life. My mind has been overflowing with ideas and expectations and plans as I continue to research.


ImageA picture I found on Pinterest of St. Jude’s in Iqaluit, below the glorious Northern lights.


Here’s a few lists which give a quick overall picture of what I hope to get out of the experience. 

The tourist in me wants to… 

  • See some wildlife (polar bear, seals, whales)
  • See the Northern lights
  • Snowshoe or cross-country ski
  • Dogsledding 
  • Try some new foods (This one will be challenging! Especially if it’s meat/fishy stuff, but I’m gonna try to keep an open mind!) 

In the way of work… 

  • I’ll be nannying for my sister’s family 4 days on, 4 days off when she returns to work from mat leave. I’ll be taking care of 3 of my nephews ages 8 months, 4 years and 6 years. Seriously cute and funny little boys, I can’t wait to spend time being auntie + nanny. 
  • Will be getting a second job to work on those days off. Probably as a waitress if possible, as that’s where I have experience and it’s a great second income.
  • Currently looking for opportunities to volunteer or intern in a position relevant to my field of study. Hopefully can jump on board with a French radio station/newspaper I found, or at the library or something related to writing/communications. 


  • Very excited to spend time with my sister and her family, who have been living up North for about 2 years now, and I’ve never visited. So glad I could be the one to fill this need.
  • The past year of school has really been a struggle for me mentally. I love learning, I love school… but I’ve just been too stressed to be able to absorb and participate as much I would like to. I’ve been a slave to academia and making money and I don’t like that. 
  • I love meeting new people and travelling! 
  • Exposure to a new language and culture will be an interesting and challenging experience.
  • I will work to develop my writing, photography, film and editing skills while I’m up there. I’ll be getting my YouTube up and running and continuing to blog (in addition to any intern position I will get hopefully)
  • I think it must be impossible to make a change this big without changing yourself in the process. The process of standing firm in my decision, working hard, adapting to a new environment, making sacrifices (leaving family, postponing school, quitting my current job), and following through will be an amazing journey and I know I won’t regret taking this leap of faith.