Filling a Blank Page

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Happy New Year! 

If you happened to read my last post, you’ll know Christmas was difficult. I found out afterwards that we lost not one, but two beautiful souls on Christmas eve. I am very thankful for a boyfriend who kept my head on straight at this time. It would be easy to allow the tragedy of loss to continue to affect me and bring me down. It is harder to choose joy, to choose to direct my focus to the silver linings.

There is an infinite amount of possibility in this world. To learn, to grow, to expand your mind and your life. I know so many people are annoyed with #newyearnewyou, or the commercialism attached to self-improvement targeted at January resolution makers. And I don’t believe you need a new year to make changes in your life. However, I like to see each year that rolls in as another opportunity for exploration and recreation. It’s a blank page, it’s a fresh slate, it’s another chance and we’re still around to seize it and make the life we want and be people that are kind and passionate and awesome. You can choose to see it this way or not.

This is what has filled the first moments of my blank page, 2015.

(photo cred to Mauricio Rojas Gramal)
10906180_10152562114751485_6611097625260861927_nAt the bar… we missed the countdown due to somebody falling asleep (most definitely not me)…. but we came for a drink and new years hugs at work before last call. (photo cred to Mauricio Rojas Gramal)

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Great crew to be working with on New Years! Nobody came in for dinner in my section, I didn’t serve a single beer! It was fun regardless getting ready for the party and sitting around talking with these wonderful people. 1484289_10152461247922554_6013748579192249050_n

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We’re gross. (photo cred to Patrick Lizotte)10917903_10152464212997554_3573233975682388871_n

What happens on Skype stays on skype is most definitely stored for embarrassment on my blog or your wedding day slideshow. My sister back home is the best medicine.

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Today I’m happy. Christmas and the days following held a lot of sadness and grief, but the wind is changing. Today I felt ready to plan and dream again. I’m proud of who I am and where I’m at and anticipating wonderful adventures in 2015. This is my content, confident, nothing’s perfect but everything is alright face.

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Happy New Years everyone!

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Christmas

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What an interesting Christmas.

The first in my 22 years on this planet that I am not in my little living room of my BC home.

The first without my parents. My dad is back in BC. My mom is in Ontario as her sister just passed on Christmas Eve. Though I never lived close to my aunt, I have very fond memories of all the times I spent with her growing up. She was the sweetest lady, and my heart breaks for my mom who has lost a sister. I don’t want to think of the days when I lose my two sisters.

There’s so much I have to be grateful for. However, these blessings are grandly juxtaposed with a homesick stomach, an aching heart and sporadically flooding eyes.

I’ve been up for 5 hours now, it’s Christmas morning. I went to bed before any of the kids; I was done with the day.

So, naturally, I woke up at 1 am.

It’s 7 am now. It’s a white Christmas, but we won’t see more than darkness outside for another 2 hours. The kids are up and excited to go downstairs to their stockings. I am already tired, but happy to have company now at least. Some coffee should remedy this for the time being.

I’ll keep hope for this coming year and everything that it holds. I will stay thankful and continue to work hard to get to where I want to be. I won’t take people for granted. I will say I love you more often. I will take every opportunity to do my best, to give my best, to give my all.

Merry Christmas all.

Christmas Movies

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I know Christmas has just come and gone, but I watched 3 Christmas movies that I had never seen before this year, and thought I would share a few short thoughts on each if you haven’t seen them and need to start planning for next year already! Just kidding… but I know you Christmas keeners exist! Image

1. It’s a Wonderful Life (I know, I know.. the shame.)

2. A Christmas Story (yep, never had seen this one either!)

3. The Nightmare Before Christmas 

It’s a wonderful life made me cry and made me want to watch more black and white films. I never appreciated old films when I was younger, but I’d love to watch more of them. Leave a comment below if you have a favourite old film that I should check out! 

A Christmas Story made me laugh. I want that lamp! I saw a christmas ornament shaped like it at Target. So awesome. I liked how it was narrated by adult Ralphie. 

Tim Burton did not disappoint. This is Halloween stuck in my head. I actually love claymation movies so much because my sister and I used to make them when we were younger. Even more excited for my trip to Disney in January, I hope they’ll still have the Christmas stuff up at the haunted mansion!