Bliss and Chaos


A whole month has slipped by without a single peep from me on here!


Life is full right now- blissfully and chaotically so. The days are full of laughter, tears, new people, fresh challenges, a different job and my continual exposure to the particularities of living in a small community. I let people go and reconnected with others… I am discovering who I am in this moment in time and place in the world.

“It’s all what you make it, and you’ll make it through.” 

I haven’t been as diligent with the goals that I set for myself as I would like. In all honesty though, I’ve learned more about myself in 3 months away than I ever could have back in my West Coast comfort bubble. It’s a trade-off that I don’t feel bad about. Relationally, mentally and emotionally I’ve been challenged to change my way of thinking, reacting and problem-solving.

For me, connecting with people here has been the biggest blessing. I’ve lived the past couple years most of my life worried about making lots of friends and fitting in. Being popular and all the rest of that garbage. Having a fresh start and knowing no one’s opinion of me matters more than my own, made all the difference. I’ve been here a short time, but already I have many people who have opened up about significant parts of their life, and allowed me to do the same with them.

It’s like the saying goes- the days are long but the years are short. Hindsight comparisons of your prior and present self reveal how each little thing we do changes us.

As I was drawing in my sketch book I came across something I had scrawled on a random page.


My life is a constant striving for the ideal and for interesting experiences and people. I really believe that you create your own reality and that your present is a culmination of each choice you’ve made and experience you’ve had to this point. I want to make my life a magical, beautiful thing.

I’m working on it.

Are you? Do you agree that you can control how your life plays out? What used to be important, and what is important to you now?

“Whatever you do, do it good.”

A Visual Reflection


In 3 days, I will celebrate one year of dating my best friend. I have known Mike for most of my life, from kindergarten or grade one we’ve been in the same class or at least the same school. We had our first slow dance with each other in grade 8. We went to prom together (only as friends!) in grade 12. Three years out of high school, here we are together. 

Our journey to this point has not been smooth or easy, but I have never been so grateful to be exactly where I am in this moment. Mike supports my dreams, treats me like a princess and can make me laugh harder than anyone else. He appreciates my gifts and abilities, and encourages me to pursue my passions and be true to myself. 

I am very in love with this man. He has my heart. I will probably do another post on our actual anniversary, but here is a little collection of pictures to show you a bit of us. 


^Mike is Santa, I’m the reindeer on the right. Our friend Martin is the other reindeer. This is grade one, I believe so it would be around 1997. 


^ At our graduation ceremony in 2010. 


^ At our prom in 2010. 


^ On a day trip to Whistler Village, we were outdoor skating in this picture.


^ Mike took me up for a flight in the Cessna 


^ collage of selfies. 


^ Mike and I on my 21st birthday BBQ this past June (2013)


So thankful for this man in my life.